this is where it gets tricky

so hold your breath
i will keep quite while you look through this house
to your surprise i had vacated before you even knew.
my mind is in no state to write
i cant hold my attention to one topic, person or idea
and yes, you have offended me, and no there will be no review
this offense will not go unnoticed.
maybe by you
you're afraid to say what you are
why can't you just be happy???
and why can't i keep a thought???
my best side is your wrong side of the bed.
and you dont sleep well
cant decide are you positive
dont you understand the severity of this situation
just so you know,
someone is dying.


dependent
pathetic
listless
authority
now its all coming to the front




prayers dont work!
well here i go playing my fiddle for you
your minstrel



useless efforts resulting in salty wounds
this is so hard

i hate this and what it has done to me
i hate myself and how little i care
lack is the word of the day
and to lack is to be young

we wont stand for intrusions
and im not so sure
you're next

live your life before i end it
and i dont mean murder

electronic cleansing..

you are being deleted from my electronic memory
no more pictures, poems, or past times..
swept away like that
the delete button is more powerful than i thought,
now i just need one in my soul.

crying wolf

i know the meaning all too well.
well this is where my crying turns into actions, all piled on you at once.
this changes everything and you will see it someday..
you thought it couldnt get any worse...
atleast you have your family
tell them of my selfishness and audacity
they already know, i wear it on my sleeve.
how so?
you'll see, the changes are already in motion..
full speed ahead, and no looking back..