Mental tail spin

so here we are again...
the lights are all flashing warning signs
and emergency back up plans are already initiating

the same old same old...professional crash test pilots.
closer the ground approaches.. offering the same  messy ending.

a splatter on a windshield, with wreckage for the scientists to devour.

how i keep waking up in this position....hands clutching the planes steering wheel.
with lives on the line, and futures to be allowed...
your own...
personal...
god..


i dont know.

but im back...spotting my landing...checking the gears....
and hoping the ground is soft.